Dr Expert Scientist Gal

I hate LinkedIn. Its such a corporate place to be. I am inherently not a corporate person. I am not someone who likes to answer questions without answering questions. I don't like to misguide people. I also don't like to brag. LinkedIn is all of these things. I tried to follow the rules that my career counselor told me. I "friended" lots of people. I reached out to people who might know hiring managers. I put in lots of resumes. I chose a cover photo. I put in all kinds of "skills" and I got "comments" from people I had worked with. I was contacted by several recruiters. I did talk to some people. At one place, I gave a talk over zoom. It was a weird talk. Then this one company got in touch. I remember their ad because it was the most basic thing I could have written. And the salary was pretty low, but I figured that was negotiable. The job involved something called "spatial" which was something I could do, so I applied.  I heard back and...

When I got laid off, I was very discombobulated. It's a very strange feeling when everything in your life stops. I could pick up my son from school. I didn't have to go anywhere? I was all of a sudden very lonely. And the doubt is there immediately. What if I don't get another job? What if I don't have any marketable skills? What if...what if.... I was also irrationally and uncontrollably angry. At management, at upper management, at the c suite. How could they let this happen? When did they know? What on earth were they thinking? Did they feel bad? Did they even care? Were they glad we were gone? Did they even know how much they had affected our lives? Our families? What about all those people who questioned our work? Didn't think it was good enough, not the right benchmarking, etc. Were they to blame too? It just made me so mad that someone I really didn't know or interact with could just cut off my life like that. And I felt like it was royally unfair. I did ...